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Texting You

By Desiree LeRoy


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the scan showed four spots on my lungs

i have a biopsy tomorrow

he said short of a miracle

it is cancer

i just want to start the meds and be clear

i have a lot of fight in me

i replied, you do

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it’s weird

it blows air into the hospital gown

to keep me warm

i turned it off cause I was getting sweaty, lol

i deflated myself

you sent a picture, your head adorned in a hospital beret, your face scared but a familiar silly

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i’m nervous

but ready to know

once they have all the facts

they can attack

i love you

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i haven’t gotten the results back yet

but I promise to let you know ASAP

any pointers when you choreograph a dance?

i kind of scratched out a routine on the plane

i need to cut the song

i also need to work on my toe fall

you sent a picture of the mountains

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i got the biopsy results back

cancer

i have to keep fighting

also, can I teach my work friends the hip hop routine you taught me?

i gotta try and break it down

work it, girl

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i have a scan in a few weeks

to find out if the treatment

is working

until then

just keepin going

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hey

can you update the gofundme?

it needs to say

stage 4

metastatic breast cancer

it has now spread

to my lungs and brain

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we met after your brain surgery

we sipped on chamomile tea

melting into your living room

laughing all afternoon

you asked about donating a box of shampoo to a local shelter

our last dinner

you shared travel plans

filling every month of the year